These are from some of her letters and postcards
that she sent from the US. I travel there on her words because I’ve yet to go myself...
8 January 2003
We went off to New
Orleans which was quite strange, a tourist town with a French feel that’s been
accentuated. Everything’s very “shabby chic”, if you know what I mean, with
that old time grubby feel, lots of old buildings or at least the facades of
them, all “broekie laced” out, with cast-iron winding staircases and pots
of bright posies, slap bang in the middle of a city with looming buildings in
the distance. Then we went off to Florida, to Mexico Beach, and rented a hotel
room on the beach, with waves breaking outside our front door. The landscape in
the US South is pretty dull, lots of strip malls with tons of chain food
branches. You could drive for miles and feel as if you’re in the same place,
the land is vast and flat, but Florida’s lovely in a “calm”, “cool dude” kind
of way. The weather was fantastic and the sea was blue blue with little lapping
waves and because it was Christmas time it was completely deserted.
January 2003
I just want this
thesis to “come to life” and leave – go off on its merry way – soon... and very
soon I’ll be leaving! I’m starting to miss home again. I’m still in two minds
about home and what there is there for me, but here I feel no connection. I do
feel very lucky though to be given the chance – at least... I only wish that it
didn’t still all feel so alien. At Emory everything’s bright, new, expensive
and shiny. I couldn’t believe that the place is actually quite old (built in
the 1800s). It’s a lovely campus though, very leafy with little reading spots
all over the place. I’m going to enjoy the last couple of months here ...
(On a postcard
included with the letter) This is a view of Emory village – I liked it because
it reminded me of “Northern Exposure” – I don’t think that I’ll be moving over
to Alaska or anywhere snowy and cold... The weather here’s been wonderful –
I’ve preferred winter to summer, it’s cold but the sky’s the most amazing blue.
I went to my first
“blockbuster” exhibition. Some works (Impressionist mainly) from the Musee
D’Orsay in Paris. I was so amazed – about twenty people gathered in
front of a work and just “stood” there transfixed – then they shuffled off to
the next one. It was amazing and it was packed, everybody staring at
Monet’s “Flags”, Degas’s “Bather”. The exhibition itself wasn’t that incredible
but Americans went to see/experience something French... They had mimes and an
“orel” player, hmm... Quite something. Oh and they had croissants and giant
choc-chip cookies just to add an American flavour!
12 March 2003
I’m crazy busy again
which is good since I only have a couple of months left in this place and I
have my thesis to finish. The support I’ve been getting here is SO incredible,
I sometimes think that they want me to finish even more than I want to myself.
I REALLY need that right now, it’s been such an undertaking: this MA. At this
moment it feels as if they’re pulling me out of who I used to be. I in turn
have to pull the thesis out. It’s all a bit like having multiple births, and
equally exhausting. Geez, after this, kiddies are going to be a breeze... I
shouldn’t say that though, you know fate.
26 April 2003
I brought a pile of your postcards here to
remind me of my sunny kitchen and the dreams I had of Tate Modern. I’m off to
New York soon and I’m really looking forward to that. I’m planning to go to DC
from there, probably only for a day though, really just want to see the
Smithsonian. I’m off to LA for my internship and at this moment I really just
want to get out of this place altogether and far away from all the insanity.
I’ve really felt as if I’ve had to slave away for the money I got and I guess
that being in a war-crazy country doesn’t help either.
12 May 2003
I’m off soon to UCLA
and the Fowler – it’s almost all over. Can’t wait to be back home but
I’m realizing that I’ll probably miss all this hyper-stimulation and the
cheap books and super-fast internet access etc... At the moment I’m frantic
again, finishing off chapters and packing and watching too many
technicolour Hindi movies. They’re fantastic and I’m completely hooked, only
problem is that they’re 3 hours long! Sigh!
19 May 2003
Was completely
overwhelmed by the Met. Spent the entire day there and still didn’t see
everything. Which I’m reconciled with. The Met is awesome, too much, impossible
to absorb it all. But I’ve seen many wonderful works that don’t translate well
in print or slide. All those landscape paintings we studied I finally saw, a
Turner hung next to a Constable. I still love Turner. There was a great Manet
and Velasquez exhibition at the Met, a “blockbuster” where people greedily
gobble work. Even saw wonderful Goyas. I’m lucky to be staying in Greenwich
Village which itself is quite an experience.
4 June 2003
LA is great, the
nicest city in the US I’ve been to so far, and the internship is going well.
I’m at the Fowler, UCLA’s museum. They have a very successful community
outreach programme and I’m here to learn about that and to learn about funding
– how they manage to get so much money for really great projects. I thought of
you when I went through the Mexican popular art exhibition. I’m sure you know
those giant, bright candlestick holders they make out of clay? The exhibition
was great... All the buildings on campus (all of the old ones) are Spanish
inspired. And it’s lovely to feel close to Mexico. I didn’t get to it and this
is probably as close as I’ll get for a while. Oh! The Mexican exhibition.
Somebody did this wonderful “Like Water for Chocolate” ” tree of life”. They
even had Gertrudis on her horse with the moustachioed, sombreroed Zapatista!
You’d have loved it.